Assalammualaikum good day everyone !

My own cosmetic brand?

Okay so er how to start this ahahaha so yea dia macam ni..err  haha. You know I work as a seaman who live rottenly at sea, haha kidding  I mean be months at sea kan we all tend to think a lot of things once we finish the duty and go back to own cabin. It's the only time we could be alone so among a lot of things that I thought of, business is one of it.

Girls, girls, girls no matter la what is her career with whom they get married or whatsoever MOST OF US CANT RESIST SOMETHING PRETTY and makeup is one of it ! I know that some girls HATE makeup but maybe someone should try to put some light lipstick mascara and blusher on her awh I swear even if they say ' I dont like it ' .. deep inside they 'll say ' Eh cantik jugak aku sebenonya' haaa hahaha. And makeup and skills, em yea I think we should be having a little,  skill but lipstick, lip matte? Awhhh girls just put it on and you're good to go. Eyeshadow, blusher, contouring yes that even myself have to struggle haha.

I dont spend that much for makeup as I am not an expert pun but who can deny that feeling when we go to makeup stores .. You know that feeling alaa that feeling yang haishh only kita kita la understand haha. Cheap or expensive that depends on masing2 I myself own some expensive makeup ( for me okayla but Aghis said it's expensive k fine ) and also some I get from the drug stores , xda hal la as long as it is fine on my sensitive skin ni. And as long as it is SAFE!

But few lip matte, seghatus lebih cenonet like that hemm for me macam err err err. So one day I was as usual browsing the makeup on websites and went to Sleek Makeup to get few lip mattes then I thought why dont I purchase in a bulk and I resell here in Malaysia then I searched on how much these people sell here and I was suprised that some of them resell it with a mak datok mahalnyaaa haha so I ordered la from UK , I spent a thousand plus for that whole box seriously and my mom was ' apehalll' ' jual balik lah buu' ' owh ok' haha.

Bla3 when I was on board the ship I did a lot research because whenever I saw the lip matte I kept telling myself eii I want to have my own brand too please so I said I want to try to find those from the well known makeup manufacturing like UK,Korea and US and I found ! Another side of myself I was not confident at all for me it was , kinda impossible and it must be difficult if it is imported and all but my concern for the lip matte is I am afraid if I get those cheap one habisla bibir orang nantiii nooo so Alhamdulillah provided with the phone connection yang dapat once a week tu, nothing is impossible kena pandai cari and be ready to get rejected and disappointed jela. I looked at my bank account and was again in doubt should I spend this much for this? Risky gila kot.. Kereta ke lipstick kereta ke lipstick haha and tadaaaaa Lipstickkkk!!! Hehe.

Then I think. I need a co- founder! Someone has to be there on land haha to subtitute me while Im onboard at sea. Someone whom I trust a lot and whom can work exactly or almost exact to how I work , someone whom as fussy as I am haha and someone whom has almost the same mind pattern with mine.
So , guess who's my co- founder?  

2 months ago I texted her/him and proposed if she/he wants to be part of this and she/he said yes and Alhamdulillah till today, I bet I have chosen the perfect person :)

ABOUT US

• We will come out with FIVE SHADES from the nude , natural , sweet , even to the metallic ! So bolehler tuko tuko kan kalau nak pergi paso pakai color macam ni kalau nak pergi date kena la sweet2 sikit kalau nak glam needs a bold color ha nak jumpa bakal mak mertua, tuko ler balik to light color kan haaa.

•  Imagine, we are in line with the quality of those famous lipstick brands but we ll come with a very very affordable price for all !

•  We are working on the website so it will be easier for everyone to purchase. Just visit the website, scroll, cuci mata, pick and pay through our website too and we 'll send to your door! 

• Ingredients wise , this is my second question thrown to the manufacturer. They are safe I ensure you that and no worry they are vegan free!! ( maksudnya tiada bahan2 dari haiwan ) .

AND MANY MORE TO DISCOVER ! Just a few weeks to go and we will announce the launching. Wish me luck guys ! :D 

xoxo,
Yana .

Assalammualaikum good day everyone :)
Has been long time since I last visit this blog. 7eleven today it s my 23rd birthday and I was unsure if I want to post this but then yea let's just do it.

I am working on an oil tanker ship, at the age of 23 years old today If you ask me, I would never thought that I ll be able to be a third officer because the word of ' give up , I cant bear anymore' came thousand times for the past three years since I joined ALAM.

At the age of 23, it s about gaining and losing game. I lost one of my bestfriends, I lose trust to some people that I closed with and I lose ..time.
You wont usually hear this from me but here I gonna say this straight. Today, I have money. But I dont have a good time. Those days me and my friends had not much money but on this day, we were in some places celebrating my birthday arranged by them. Each years I start losing those. Birthday is just a birthday : ) To some people it has always been that way but for me birthday was always a special day , a day that nothing could goes wrong . But since I was 19,zzz I dont even want to talk further also what happened on 7 eleven for each years oh Except for last year my ship crews got me a cake but still it wasnt the same cz it wasnt a home.

But Im glad that tho some people has walked away and leave the stains , and some pulak went away and return , there are still few who stay. This time is no longer be nice to everyone ea, it's whoever wanna leave, please do before you leave your shits on me. Those days yes, as much as I could I ll try my best to keep , to let them stay oh no more no more.

Progress? Yea still working like emm like.. like .. something2.. waiting for another 5months to go home. And recently I am working hard on the business that will be launched next year once Im home InshaaAllah ,so far it goes well but need to collect more money to make it better hehe.  Luckily my ship this time route Asia je so we quite oftenly got the internet so yea okyla I can work from here easily.

And! really, duit tu..  I planned to use the money for the downpayment of my dream car, Audi. But instead of that, I canceled the plan and use the money to start up this business haha. And and and, I have stopped buying and scrolling for handbags , so that I can use up the money for business matters. I even cut some budgets that suppose to be used for my engagement for.. business again hahahahahha #revealedisit ! ahh better use the money to get more money first. Bergaya later. hmmm kempunan  but it's okay la kan , sometimes you have to lose something to get something ( but usually Im the type whom dont wanna lose ,try to get both ) haha

Honestly, it wont be a good sleep if I start to think on my future. From other people's point of view there s nothing to worry for me. But here.
As a seawoman, NOW I  am kinda conmfortable with the rank, salary, and all but till when ? What should I do once Im married. What job and how much may I earn . Can I still buy handbags , cz husband wont get for me one. So if I want what I want I got to get myself a job which, haha what job. But if I work, eg 8-5 job how if my husband is on leave for two months and he ll be staying at home alone. Then what does it mean by having a family? And kids wont be able to see their dad for months and mom will be around only at night and Sunday. Like that ?? THEN THE END OF THESE KECELARUAN USUALLY ENDED UP LIKE THIS ' HMMMM BUT I NEED MY OWN MONEY ALSOOO' HAHAHA. seeeee? Now you know why am I coming back with business. Honestly, I have plans but you know one time you say you want to stay till you become a Captain, one time you say you just want to sit at home baking and eat and serve kids. 

Plenty times, I admit it's the ego. Thoughts of ' I ve gone tru sooo much pain to get to this so will I just stop here as a third officer , you dont wanna be a captain yana? that 60k per month  ? that 4 stripes on the shoulder?'  Then few minutes later I ll start thinking, its ok la I let my husband to become one, I ll sacrifice. Then few minutes later again I ll start thinking, ehhhh mana bolehhh we both sama2 belajar both deserve that salary both bla3 hahah I dont know. I really dont know. Till the time comes, I... I dont know haha. Who is Yana in the next 10 years. But honestly, I m looking for real happiness. If one day it is meant that I have to sacrifice my this and that for the betterness, I ll do. But one thing I always bear in mind ha. Dont get too over confident on your partner haha today he might love you tomorrow you wont know if they say they dont know you and leave you undressed unhomed hahaha. #kidding #noimnotkidding in the end like they always said to me ' kau perempuan, ke dapo jugak akhirnya' .er ke dapo akhirnya tu mungkin la ye la kan haha but my point is , as a woman you ll one day become a wife and a mother, and whoever you are, what rank you have or what ship are u working with, I believe once u get married, husband is your captain.

What else? Oh I have one dream that I always look up to but untill today , I found it so hard to get into there. It requires me to make a massive transform to myself which, I barely can do. so yea I know HE listens to me and will open up the chance for me but just that, I wont know if I have the time. Hopefully the time will come soon.

Another thing, people questioned me when did my money goes when I told them I still dont have a car, a house, okayla atleast a basic thing that most of the teenager dah ada, kereta lah kan. Xda, memang I xda haha Im still young mannnn so my money is for my family ,bla3 baru u patut sebok pasal diri you and lepastu ngenyoh nak kawen ahahahha. Ni pun,still I havent done much for them. Told ya, more money less time. #butanyway #ihaventgotmydrivinglicensed #yejanjibalikniambik

Thankyou for all of the wishes.. Wishing the same for all of you too :)

OKAY IT S KINDA LATE ALREADY SHOULD GET MYSELF TO SLEEP. Conclusion on my 23rd birthday, goodluck Yana in planning your future hahaha be happy be grateful.
xoxo,Yana.

Recently, I realize this. 

When I look at my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, wow there's quite a big number of friends. Then I look at my Whatsapp chats, eh only few. It's less than 10 personal conversation , the rest are Whatsapp group and businesses. Compare to few years back when I had a lot of frnds to chat with!

Then to make it more obvious, was when I make a list of whom to invite on this one event of mine. It's a longgg longg longg way to go but I am a type that make a preparation almost a half year for every occasion cz for me I dont count days as ' months ' .I count as ' satu kapal' period .Ha okay back to when I made a list of the invitation , surprisingly I could only list very few, very..few! It suppose to be prioritized for my close friends as anyway this aint a wedding pon kan but the 'close friends' hmmm . I even cut some whom I already listed. Some of the reasons.

- Er, this fella. Used to be closed but not anymore cz he/she is actually a badass. 
- Er, this fella. Bila tak da girlfriend, cari kita bila ada girlfriend terus tak kenal kita.
- Er, this fella. When did the last time he Hi me. Owh three years ago.
- Er, this fella. Time dia nak business je dia cari.
- Er, this fella. Makin hari makin sial je perangai.

and etc.

At first when I told Aghis that I feel like I have very less friends now and I aint sure if it is a good thing or ? Then he said this. 

' I have made you into a better girl. '

And haha I dont know how to take that statement but I think , okayla maybe having an over protective boyfriend is one of the reason why ( sorry bro ) but I figured out that the main reason is, I DONT TAKE BULLSHITS ANYMORE. 

I used to be someone who cares too much on my relationship with other people. Too much concern on 'jaga hati' things like that. I have enough of those. I wont try hard anymore, it's the time to let go whichever / whomever that wants to walk away. I wont hold back , I wont be sad cz everyone now is grown up with their own lives so let them be. Kalau hang nak bla, hang bla. And wow! I feel much happier by doing that. 

Because you see ea.. What is the point of being someone who cares too much while others never even want to bother and appreciate? Bodohla kan? So Im waking up myself haha ! Less important matters, dont even get stressed about it. Last time I cried for days pasal get disappointed on this one manusia but , oh shit man why should I be sad about it. In fact, I should be grateful lah as one of the electron has leave! 

Family  lain, family is the responsibility.

The older I get, the more person that I found assholes. Some even , I called them friends. Today, I dont really ambik port lah. 

Yes. People will say things. Like, owh now that you have a career, bajet that you are having a good life konon that 's why you can say you dont care anymore.. Now can say lah ! But people do not know what makes us change. Takyah pening2 la, they dont even want to know the real things. They just love to assume. ASS U ME.

 It bothers me sometimes to think that ea what has happened to me now ea why am I hati kering sangat (  heartless ). This isnt Yana actually but to live, I have to be like this. And being someone who works onboard the ships, slowly without I realize it changes me and honestly, I dont like it tho. 

I think Aghis knows me well as he always scold me for being ' ala, nanti orang cakap apa' ( later what people will say ) ... Till that one point I said this. ' mampus la wea dorang nak cakap apa' .

However, I believe that we should be having a large number of  'kenalan'. For that I have to admit, I have quite a lot in all places even out of the country .Tapi nak kata dorang tu kawan, errr bukan kawan la they are just ' we know each other '.Networking in other hand, is ' bapak ah penting gila ' in living at today's society. Not all of the ' kenalan' are friends, so by separating the list of kenalan and kawan also , gives me a less headache life because you may differentiate like, okay this is to keep for? for business for example. And for this one pulak is to keep for ? shoulder to cry, for a friendship for example. Family is not in the list lah, family is what we should be keeping at all time no matter what kan. 
Without networking, it's quite a hardly living jugak lah kot. So, let's be wise. I dont choose whom should I friend with but I am particular on whom should I be close with.  Friends come and go, that's it. Yesterday they said they care, tomorrow ? 

Hi! Salam to all :D 

Salam Aidilfitri to everyone ! 

The blossoms of raya ( eid ) on land, Allahu Rabbi nobody can describe how grateful am I cz I ve felt once how it was to celebrate the festive without the familes! Realising that next year I may miss this on land again, so Im celebrating this year's eid with all of my heart haha.

My mom's hometown is half an hour dist from my house . Same goes to my dad's so yes, I never get to feel the hours of journey to balik kampung for raya. But I know soon or later I will haha. The night before raya my grandma 's house was blacked out for hours since we had our iftar! The next morning, on the first day raya was heavily raining and so everyone was late to the mosque. I was thinking, if the rain didnt stop till few more hours, I better forget about getting ready, makeup, dress up, and continue sleeping ahh you know the joy of this equation?  sleep+rain+kampung house = Gebor ! ( blanket !) haha. But it stopped early so okay, had to raya.

I love the most how chaotic the house be when it comes to the nagy women waking up everyone to go shower and get ready, the men that always with the towels on the head waiting for their turns to use bathroom and the kids who usually are ready to raya much earlier than anyone else in the house, and the babies who keep crying. For me I had to get ready early cz I always take a lot of time for the shawls you know Im such a nooby -,-. After the showers, usually me and my aunts together with the dara pingitans will go no where else but in front of the mirror to do make up ! Since I was small, till now that s how my pagi raya looks like. It's really fun trust me ! Exchanging make up stuffs, then I had to go to the kids because monkey see monkey do, when they saw us they wanted to put on some on their faces too ! bla2, makeup session takes at least 40 minutes. After that was the photography session and another chaotic one, distribution of duit raya ( can I call it as raya token haha basically it's a gift to the youngers in form of money during eid). The kids didnt line up properly so when they start to realize that they missed some , they or their parents hahah will shout for " eaa you havent give! ea I havent get from you!'' .Then only the forgiving session with everyone. Actually by right this has to be done before anything else started. Even this , they couldnt stop in being funny and chaotic haha. My tears dropped two times in the morning, once when I ask for mom's forgiveness and second was when Aghis called me up for one to two minutes by satellite phone.

My pagi raya is always, always fun in Rengit because of my cool family members especially the aunts and uncles tho not everyone was there.

In the evening my family and I went to Ayah's hometown and few of his siblings' houses then the next day we were back to my house , and went back again to Rengit. The third raya as usual, it's JB turns, and that also we have to make a second round maybe by next week ! Too many relatives in JB or I can say, almost eveyone is there haha  and the fourth raya was a routine together with my besties visiting the friends. As we are getting older it's no longer about quantity but quality.  Since everyone has their own studies and careers, we sometimes tend to not bother especially when it has been years since you met some of them. So to get back the chance of meeting few of them in this Syawal was a good opportunity to catch up.

It's 5th day Syawal and I plan to do nothing but enjoying the stays at home and maybe to go with the parents for raya visit to their friend's and  at the same time waiting for the guess to come over. For me and my family, we really enjoy to welcome the guesses ! It's rezeki ...

Okay so you may view my raya photos in FB and Instagram . I dont private them so you may stalk without me knowing too no worries :)

p/s My phone screen cracked  a day before raya. I was just get down from the car once we arrived at my grandma's house and a kid which I had no idea whose son was that maybe one of from the neighborhood suddenly chased me with a frog in his punch ! He even squinched it like womagad I dont want to recap so I ran like Usain Bolt till I realize that I had dropped my phone -,- That boy haaaa ergh !

Salam Ramadhan to all :) 

All bless to Him, I got the chance to be here at home with the families for Ramadhan this year. This time, I see the pattern of how my family do the ifthar. Compare to the previous years, bazaar is no longer the 1st choice, it's more to the cook-your-own-dish and the most obvious, when I see the dining table, usually it's only the main dish of the day , 3 or 4 kuih , drinks and that s all. I am amazed hahaha. And for sahur, sorry  I have to be honest, I usually sleep at 4 to 5 am sometimes I drag to sahur time but most of the time I take Nestum, my all time favorite at 3 or 4 something like that and no more wake up for sahur then.

This year I try out to do some small business and it goes well so far. Hard work paid off.

 Raya preparation, ehem.

Ive bought some baju raya, some are ready to wear from the boutique or bazaar or recycle, anywhere la and some will be made by my mom, as usual she s my all time personal tailor. Those are bought much earlier before the fasting month! Some even haha okay what happened few days ago, I was cleaning my closet and I saw 5 to 6 shopping bags, in a bag! When I looked into it omg I found some clothes and shawls that I forgotten already they exist and that I had bought them ! haha see what happen when you simply buy things and when you're home, you put them somewhere2 and found them no since then! So I was like, owh okay I have some raya clothes already. Usually each year each of us in the family will get ourselves shoes and handbags for raya but Im planning to not getting any since I still have them good to wear. But you know, planning is just a planning lol.

Anyway, too bad that it's almost the end of holy month but the intention to finish 30juzuk of AlQuran in a month of this seems unachievable. Haiyer.....I told my father that this month is going so fast and he said, maybe I take less chance to do more ibadah. hmm.

So I wish everyone to have a good Ramadhan, a joyous health and the upcoming Eidulfitri :) Raya jemput lah datang ke rumah ya.