Pressure comes everyday be it minor or major, but I believe in one thing. I HAVE CHOICES.
And when I listed out what are the things that tend to give me the pressure, I found out that out of 7, only 2 that come from me, myself and I. The rest? The rest come from other people, siot betul haha.

For example,

- I don't like this one girl. Everytime I think about her my heart will be like beating fast as I feel annoyed, everything. The pressure comes when I dont like her, but for some valid reason I really need to be nice with her by crook or by hook. Well, sometimes we cant stop ourselves from disliking someone. However, I have choices. I may choose to let other people to talk about her in front of me and I would  feel pressure for the whole entire conversation OR... I can say ' I dont give a f*ck about her so I dont want to listen, change topic please'. Avoid. See..choices.Happier.
- Some assholes messed up with you. And this one cant really be avoided too no matter how nice you are pun. And it's, really hard to handle cz u need to balance out between ' lessons on how Rasulullah deal with people that messed up with him' and ' I have to balas back because he/she is really too much already!' u know, conflict with your iman hahaha! But still we have choices, to feel pressure about it for the first few hours or to let this story to haunt us for months, or even for years. LET IT GO AND LET ALLAH DO WHAT'S BEST TO THAT PERSON lah. Ni, hari2 nak cakap pasal benda tu then how to let go the pressure la dear? Does that person really deserve your brain space ah? kalau ada 100GB brain space, 10MB pun dia tak layak tau.

-  U got a wrong order by a waitress ( stranger ) at 10 am and get stressed about it until the next 10 am. Is it fair? I used to be a type that when something not right happened to me, it would ruin my WHOLE, ENTIRE DAY .Which was not fair! Not fair to me and to everyone around me. Now I learn to appreciate the moment. Contoh if I get pissed off with my husband or my family, I tried to stop myself for dragging it too long. Kalau tiba2 dorang mati, ha macam mana? macam mana? 

Life is short. I can say that some of the things that contribute to how happy I am now despite some of the pressures that come along which is normal , are 

I dont keep toxic people in my life. Whoever wants to go, go. Whoever that I feel like ' I cannot la with this person anymore' then instead of putting up with him/her, I ll just remove them from the list. Senang. And my bestfriends know me well that after few trials,  once I totally heartless to someone, there u go. Vanish, vanish, vanish. 

I dont compare myself with other people. 
Okay, they are richer, prettier, smarter, bigger boobs, bigger butts, smaller brains, more cars, more husbands and bla3.. So what? So? What. I do compare myself but only with what I used to be, and what I want myself to be. That's all. I have my own vision kan and even my journey is different then why shall I compare to others? Buang masa. We can have idol or people that we look up to but it s not necessary to compare our lives with them pun. We just apply what s good in their lives to ours then okay la takpayah la nak eii why she's so rich, I'm not. For me, As long as I am a better Yana, okay dah tu. Ingat kita ni hidup 300 tahun ke nak pikir banyak benda wea tak sis, tak.

I dont do things that I dont like, in such a very long term. 
' Boleh jadi yang kamu tak suka tu adalah yang baik bagi kamu' agree. But I always believe there will always be a time limit. 
I dont like sailing, but I like the money. So I sailed, get money and that's it few years have been enough. 
I dont like staying with my ex housemate. Few months and that's it, I left.
and , many more la.

Know when I need to put a fullstop.
Plan, then execute to quit. Sometimes I dont plan, I just do. We need to get rid the mentality of giving up is always bad. Not necessary.. Most of the times I give up on one thing is because I want to start anew. A much better thing, so sometimes I do really need to give it up. And all of my things-that-I-gave-up are now turning out so, so ,sooo welll dude. 

 always remind myself that Allah loves me. 
When He gives me challenges, it s because He is giving me chance to be in his Jannah. In my last usrah, we talked about this. The message was something like this.
Kalau Allah bagi kita ujian, bersyukurlah. Bersyukurlah. Allah tengah ingat kita, dia nak bagi kita chance nak masuk syurga. Kalau Allah dah lama tak bagi kita ujian atau sakit, ha itu yang kita patut risau, jaga2. Takut lah kita bila kita dah mula leka. 
In what sense pulak yang bila Allah bagi kita ujian kita ada chance nak masuk syurga? When will we remember Allah the most? When we have problems lah, confirm.

Surah Al Insyirah: my fav surah.

1. Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan dadamu (Muhammad)?,
2. dan Kami pun telah menurunkan bebanmu darimu,
3. yang memberatkan punggungmu,
4. dan Kami tinggikan sebutan nama(mu) bagimu.
5. Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan,
6. sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan.
7. Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah bekerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain),
8. dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap.

There was one time when I was sailing on my first ship, I was at the peak of all kind of pressure and stresses and Ibu wasnt there Aris wasnt there Ronggengs were not there , and other people onboard were hmm couldnt really trust on them so who else. That moment, That moment... I realized, I really could feel, I really believed.. that in Allah I trust. In the middle of the sea, no one else, no one except Him. Bentang sejadah, nangis all that you could, and phew... that feeling.

 Talk to positive people.
 And smart people,haha talking to stupid people will just make my day worst. I dont really google or read books on how to motivate myself, I only need to surround myself close with good,positive people.

Bersyukur.
Yang baik datang dari Allah, yang buruk datang dari diri sendiri. Dah tau buruk , kita tak suka kita nak better, work hard to it la. We cant avoid ourselves from complaining, that's normal but try to end it with ' but Alhamdulillah .... '
I one time complain things to my husband, literally about my life. He gave me this answer ' You cuba tengok you tengah makan kat mana and how much that plate of steak costs you?' 
And ada jugak one time he complains to me about himself then I said ' you cuba tengok I, aint I a great, pretty , rajin wife that Allah gives to you and aint that wonderful?' hahahaha good example is it :P jkjk 
So bersyukur but never stops improving. 

We cant avoid to feel pressure. Even if it comes for 2 seconds of our day, it still comes kan. But we have choices on how to deal with it. 

EGO MUST GO
TRASH MUST THROW

p/s last week  I told my shoulder to cry on that I feel something is not right with my life but I ddnt know what is it. Next day, I went to KLCC and got myself a new purse.woah terus that ' something is not right' feeling gone hahahaha biatch.













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Hi, Assalamualaikum 

After 6 years of being in relationship, I finally get married with a man whom I have fallen in love each day, di ijab kabulkan on 2 / 2 / 2018 followed by the reception on the next day and the second reception on Aris' side on the following weekend.

The preparation was not a joke. I spent almost each week of the months for more than a half year to prepare what I could, spent times money energy and everything that I could afford to, to ensure this wedding is according to what I hoped for. I am so thankful that I am blessed with a very supportive family my parents aunts and uncles who worked hard for my reception and my mom in law who has been a very ngam gang, understanding and cooperative since the preparation of our engagement till the wedding. People always have choices and I chose to make my reception that way. You, don't complain haha.

Preparation wise, I'm not sure for other people but for me if you really want to have a reception, either big or small you must first get the money ready. Ongkos nya itu penting buk! This might be the reason that leads to some of us to not married yet? But I say this again, this is all depends on you some people think that it's not necessary so terpulang la. For me because I memang really want it, so gotta worked for it.

Once you have this, then only you can think of what kind of dress you want, meal budget per head, pelamin, and etc. It can be below 5k above 50k or whatever, no specific amount to be exact. Suka hati yang penting ye nikah kan haha.

And all of these, totally depend on you and your family. You know, sometimes you want it to be this way but since we still have a family so we cant avoid the facts that there are things we cant decide by our own and sometimes we even have to give in. Yes it's your wedding. But as I said sometimes in some matters you will have to give in. Percayalah nanti you buat majlis you will know haha. 

I will make another post specifically on what to prepare upon the marriage especially untuk orang Johor on how I did the kursus kahwin, step by step untuk isi borang pendaftaran nikah online, and temuduga perkahwinan kat pejabat agama.

Anyway whatever it is Alhamdulillah perjalanan dipermudahkan tho there were some hiccups which is normal but most importantly is to move on and have a better life that's it. I am now married, which leads to a title ' Wife ' haha and this is surely a very big responsibility but I am all ready since ever :)

To view some of our wedding photos, boleh click PHOTO ALBUM ni ya 

Awh guyss I finally kahwin dengan Aris!! hahahah 

And thank you to all of you for the wishes and doa moga Allah limpahkan kebahagiaan dan rahmat untuk mereka yang mendoakan kebaikan untuk orang lain.Aamin

If you would like to know anything about my wedding, kindly drop a comment and InshaaAllah I'll reply accordingly wokay.Maybe I'll have another post for this. tengok mood la ea ...



Salam Ukhwah and xoxo ! 

Bini Aris,
Yana 
#ehjakun 

Assalammualaikum wbt and hello everyone!

On 26th March, yea I was engaged haha. My grandfather kan, when I told him I wanna get engaged he asked me ' dengan sape ? ' ( with whom ) err  he made me sounds like I had more than one boOn 26th March, yea I was engaged haha. My grandfather kan, when I told him I wanna get engaged he asked me ' dengan sape ? ' ( with whom ) err  he made me sounds like I had more than one boOn 26th March, yea I was engaged haha. My grandfather kan, when I told him I wanna get engaged he asked me ' dengan sape ? ' ( with whom ) err  he made me sounds like I had more than one boOn 26th March, yea I was engaged haha. My grandfather kan, when I told him I wanna get engaged he asked me ' dengan sape ? ' ( with whom ) err  he made me sounds like I had more than one boyfriends for god sake, no haha. Ill be posting about how did he ask me for marriage, but em later yea. Today's will be sharing here and there about my engagement cz some dm me and ask I think better I compile them here.

Let's start with ,
Busana. I did not want a dress, tho my family all kept saying ' u know nowadays people get this kind of baju for engagement' and I said, yea that is why. because there has been plenty people wearing those kind of baju like dress labuh some flowers timbul2 or beadings something like that, that is why I wanted to wear something uncommon so I chose a simple and soft color songket bought in Jakel, and my mom decided to make it kebarung labuh and it turns out so damn nice ! This design, is inspired by Kak Abil ( nabila huda ) on her wedding day, also by Arma Couture. Sewn by, no couture couture haha it's by a nyonya I think her name is YahLee? ( aunt's regular taylor) . For veil, I told my mom siang2 lagi I dont want the modern veil labuci2 one. I want it like the alas meja kind of lace. ( orang dulu2 kan pakai alas meja putih bunga2 jarang2 tuu tuu ) so they gave me the reaction of..huh????? haha I told them, no worry! it will turn out nice cz i saw those 90's women they wore this kind of lace for their veil on top of their sanggul.kan! First I was worried la cz I wear tudung so wonder if the veil and tudung suit well, then I guess yea I made the right choice,kot haha. For this , it needs more than 5 metres . Disaster for me to walk as the skirt inside was a very small opening ( u need 5 1/2 or 6 metres la ) sebab nak kembang bagai or else end up like me jalan melayu terakhir simply cz my kain is sempit not enough meters haha. Upah jahit costed me only RM 85 only believe it or not. ( Told you cz it's not a couture couture ) hhahaaha for the songket, cant recap the price .
Next, mini pelamin.It was complicated. Cz my taste is different with what the local bridal house could provide and some do but the price is , no I dont wanna pay for that much. So I told my father, instead of I pay them then they ll give me something that I dont like but I have to pay mahal for it, can u help me to do it? Definitely he said yes cz he loves doing this kind of thing like decorating, mengukir ukir, stuffs. We go white cz we believe it will turns out nice in the picture so he made the wooden white frame ukir sendiri potong sendiri everything. Initial plan was to make it brown but last minute, we changed. Th hydrangeas and large orchids I bought them in Cowboy ( just in front of my house I call it Ikea BP) haha. Those brown and ceramic vases, my dad's.  White curtains and white carpets we rent them ( will give the instagram later ) . Chair, it has been here for so long already but my friends asked ' ni kerusi mana' haha we just painted it gold and changed the cushion cover. Satisfied and jimat cost!
Dulang hantaran.
Me and his mom kept discussing and updating about this cz we want them to look perfect in everything la, designs, colors, the trays, the items on the trays and so on. It was 5 berbalas 7 ( or 7 berbalas 5?) im not sure sorry and we bought them together mostly were ofcourse from JPO cz it's the nearest and most convenience for me  haha it's really easy to get them from there okay sebab you can get handbags, women and men's shoes, shirt, perfumes,makeup set, and bla2 under one roof ! Dont end up finding sirih and Alquran there just because I said u can get most of them there pulak! But if you have more time and passports, go shop in Singapore once they have sales. My uncle told me ( only after I bought them all sigh ). Other option if u want to get cheaper than JPO kan, I suggest to order it direct from Europe and USA through this ig ->  @berndmar    and   @usa_loveshoppe .They are Malaysians personal shopppers.  I used to buy things from them la tapi as it takes weeks to be delivered so for this hantaran matter, I didnt. For baju , we bought siap2 nikah's busana so easy la sekali jalan je one time beli,
The girls and boys.Chose the baby purple color, everything ( except for tudung and necklace ) is from Jakel.
My family. I didnt give them specific colors but I told them to wear Pastels and my parents were in Baby Blue.
Food.Catering. And most of the desserts , kuih muih everything were from my mom's friends,free. Till we all pun macam confuse ni siapa bagi ni siapa bagi there were plenty haha Alhamdulillah . Cheesetart on my hantaran with ship's detailing was from my aunt, Narida Nalina gundut cheesetart !
Doorgift The Reko is from Ikea we bought 150 pcs for it. Then the what's that eak crysta glass jar tah apabenda tu from one of the suppliers in Ayer Itam , glass bottle from ( sorry i xtau nama kedai haha ) and kacang sponsored by my uncle, Cikmi and Popcorns for kids sponsored by my aunt Cikma.
Makeup I first wanted to go matte makeup but suggested by a MUA also, I should not go for matte. Matte  for daily okayla, it's an engagement so should try highlighting here and there so I told these to my MUA for the majlis . I was worried, worried if I ended up looking like pondan matila nakk cz sometimes , some MUA will make you look like bapuk for real for real then Jannah ( my MUA ) did glittering. I first said no no no glittering  xsuka but when it done, wow.. not bad hehe I love it it enhance my look actually. here's the contact list
 - Ilimiah Catering - 012 7267395 (  taman maju )
- Photographer      - 017 74477379 ( Faisoul Awan Pixel ) He's a friend of mine ada dua lagi members                                  Apish and Aiem. Photos are superb! and he s really good dalam memeriahkan                                        suasana haha and, easy to cooperate with, fast service!
- Makeup              - instagram : Hennabycahayajannah , my 2nd time after LXC photoshoot.
- Dulang hantaran lelaki - instagram : Putrajayakl_exclusivehantaran
- Dulang hantaran I                  - instagram : rentherwedding ( pickup at Skudai JB )
  & Sewa curtains
  and carpets and etc
- two extra dulang                     - instagram : faixalcreations_deco_n_artz  ( BBU JB )
- some others                           - instagram : somethingborrowedbynawal
- Kuih talam                             - Amaleena ( BP ) 017 7995419 ni memang sedap! everyone said it,n                                                        murah okay tempat lain harga dah above RM 30
Brownies                                 - instagram : nurfatinmohdzaidi 010 7066097 meriah gila brownies dia                                                      very rich and tak lokek okay like, homagad full of taste!
overall kan
I think the paling high cost one is, our barang hantaran demmit lol others were okay okayla , and makeup and photographer , sure u can makeup urself can use ur own dslr but i didnt want to pening2 kepala, and wanted a perfect result, so I took the professionals one la. for me I dont mind if there comes any negative perceptions or issues   thrown to me like apa2 la haha I am just here, enjoying and keep being positive for me nothing's wrong thankyou to both families majlis went well . I am born to be very detail type of em bitch haha and k whatever hahaha it's okay .. Smile :)
 em these are all that I can think about now I might miss somewhere somewhat if you wanna know just text me ( like tyara she asked me who's cream puff was it ) haha okay till then.. I gotta pack my bag for the Nepal trip this Sunday, and my pending lipstick's work matter ( nangis ) , and ba2 okaybyeeeeeeee see ya !
xoxo,
yana.
x
xLet's start with ,Busana. I did not want a dress, tho my family all kept saying ' u know nowadays people get this kind of baju for engagement' and I said, yea that is why. because there has been plenty people wearing those kind of baju like dress labuh some flowers timbul2 or beadings something like that, that is why I wanted to wear something uncommon so I chose a simple and soft color songket bought in Jakel, and my mom decided to make it kebarung labuh and it turns out so damn nice ! This design, is inspired by Kak Abil ( nabila huda ) on her wedding day, also by Arma Couture. Sewn by, no couture couture haha it's by a nyonya I think her name is YahLee? ( aunt's regular taylor) . For veil, I told my mom siang2 lagi I dont want the modern veil labuci2 one. I want it like the alas meja kind of lace. ( orang dulu2 kan pakai alas meja putih bunga2 jarang2 tuu tuu ) so they gave me the reaction of..huh????? haha I told them, no worry! it will turn out nice cz i saw those 90's women they wore this kind of lace for their veil on top of their sanggul.kan! First I was worried la cz I wear tudung so wonder if the veil and tudung suit well, then I guess yea I made the right choice,kot haha. For this , it needs more than 5 metres . Disaster for me to walk as the skirt inside was a very small opening ( u need 5 1/2 or 6 metres la ) sebab nak kembang bagai or else end up like me jalan melayu terakhir simply cz my kain is sempit not enough meters haha. Upah jahit costed me only RM 85 only believe it or not. ( Told you cz it's not a couture couture ) hhahaaha for the songket, cant recap the price .Next, mini pelamin.It was complicated. Cz my taste is different with what the local bridal house could provide and some do but the price is , no I dont wanna pay for that much. So I told my father, instead of I pay them then they ll give me something that I dont like but I have to pay mahal for it, can u help me to do it? Definitely he said yes cz he loves doing this kind of thing like decorating, mengukir ukir, stuffs. We go white cz we believe it will turns out nice in the picture so he made the wooden white frame ukir sendiri potong sendiri everything. Initial plan was to make it brown but last minute, we changed. Th hydrangeas and large orchids I bought them in Cowboy ( just in front of my house I call it Ikea BP) haha. Those brown and ceramic vases, my dad's.  White curtains and white carpets we rent them ( will give the instagram later ) . Chair, it has been here for so long already but my friends asked ' ni kerusi mana' haha we just painted it gold and changed the cushion cover. Satisfied and jimat cost!Dulang hantaran.Me and his mom kept discussing and updating about this cz we want them to look perfect in everything la, designs, colors, the trays, the items on the trays and so on. It was 5 berbalas 7 ( or 7 berbalas 5?) im not sure sorry and we bought them together mostly were ofcourse from JPO cz it's the nearest and most convenience for me  haha it's really easy to get them from there okay sebab you can get handbags, women and men's shoes, shirt, perfumes,makeup set, and bla2 under one roof ! Dont end up finding sirih and Alquran there just because I said u can get most of them there pulak! But if you have more time and passports, go shop in Singapore once they have sales. My uncle told me ( only after I bought them all sigh ). Other option if u want to get cheaper than JPO kan, I suggest to order it direct from Europe and USA through this ig ->  @berndmar    and   @usa_loveshoppe .They are Malaysians personal shopppers.  I used to buy things from them la tapi as it takes weeks to be delivered so for this hantaran matter, I didnt. For baju , we bought siap2 nikah's busana so easy la sekali jalan je one time beli,The girls and boys.Chose the baby purple color, everything ( except for tudung and necklace ) is from Jakel.My family. I didnt give them specific colors but I told them to wear Pastels and my parents were in Baby Blue.Food.Catering. And most of the desserts , kuih muih everything were from my mom's friends,free. Till we all pun macam confuse ni siapa bagi ni siapa bagi there were plenty haha Alhamdulillah . Cheesetart on my hantaran with ship's detailing was from my aunt, Narida Nalina gundut cheesetart !Doorgift The Reko is from Ikea we bought 150 pcs for it. Then the what's that eak crysta glass jar tah apabenda tu from one of the suppliers in Ayer Itam , glass bottle from ( sorry i xtau nama kedai haha ) and kacang sponsored by my uncle, Cikmi and Popcorns for kids sponsored by my aunt Cikma.Makeup I first wanted to go matte makeup but suggested by a MUA also, I should not go for matte. Matte  for daily okayla, it's an engagement so should try highlighting here and there so I told these to my MUA for the majlis . I was worried, worried if I ended up looking like pondan matila nakk cz sometimes , some MUA will make you look like bapuk for real for real then Jannah ( my MUA ) did glittering. I first said no no no glittering  xsuka but when it done, wow.. not bad hehe I love it it enhance my look actually. here's the contact list - Ilimiah Catering - 012 7267395 (  taman maju )- Photographer      - 017 74477379 ( Faisoul Awan Pixel ) He's a friend of mine ada dua lagi members                                  Apish and Aiem. Photos are superb! and he s really good dalam memeriahkan                                        suasana haha and, easy to cooperate with, fast service!- Makeup              - instagram : Hennabycahayajannah , my 2nd time after LXC photoshoot.- Dulang hantaran lelaki - instagram : Putrajayakl_exclusivehantaran- Dulang hantaran I                  - instagram : rentherwedding ( pickup at Skudai JB )  & Sewa curtains  and carpets and etc- two extra dulang                     - instagram : faixalcreations_deco_n_artz  ( BBU JB )- some others                           - instagram : somethingborrowedbynawal- Kuih talam                             - Amaleena ( BP ) 017 7995419 ni memang sedap! everyone said it,n                                                        murah okay tempat lain harga dah above RM 30Brownies                                 - instagram : nurfatinmohdzaidi 010 7066097 meriah gila brownies dia                                                      very rich and tak lokek okay like, homagad full of taste!overall kanI think the paling high cost one is, our barang hantaran demmit lol others were okay okayla , and makeup and photographer , sure u can makeup urself can use ur own dslr but i didnt want to pening2 kepala, and wanted a perfect result, so I took the professionals one la. for me I dont mind if there comes any negative perceptions or issues   thrown to me like apa2 la haha I am just here, enjoying and keep being positive for me nothing's wrong thankyou to both families majlis went well . I am born to be very detail type of em bitch haha and k whatever hahaha it's okay .. Smile :)

 em these are all that I can think about now I might miss somewhere somewhat if you wanna know just text me ( like tyara she asked me who's cream puff was it ) haha okay till then.. I gotta pack my bag for the Nepal trip this Sunday, and my pending lipstick's work matter ( nangis ) , and ba2 okaybyeeeeeeee see ya !
xoxo,
yana.
x
xLet's start with ,Busana. I did not want a dress, tho my family all kept saying ' u know nowadays people get this kind of baju for engagement' and I said, yea that is why. because there has been plenty people wearing those kind of baju like dress labuh some flowers timbul2 or beadings something like that, that is why I wanted to wear something uncommon so I chose a simple and soft color songket bought in Jakel, and my mom decided to make it kebarung labuh and it turns out so damn nice ! This design, is inspired by Kak Abil ( nabila huda ) on her wedding day, also by Arma Couture. Sewn by, no couture couture haha it's by a nyonya I think her name is YahLee? ( aunt's regular taylor) . For veil, I told my mom siang2 lagi I dont want the modern veil labuci2 one. I want it like the alas meja kind of lace. ( orang dulu2 kan pakai alas meja putih bunga2 jarang2 tuu tuu ) so they gave me the reaction of..huh????? haha I told them, no worry! it will turn out nice cz i saw those 90's women they wore this kind of lace for their veil on top of their sanggul.kan! First I was worried la cz I wear tudung so wonder if the veil and tudung suit well, then I guess yea I made the right choice,kot haha. For this , it needs more than 5 metres . Disaster for me to walk as the skirt inside was a very small opening ( u need 5 1/2 or 6 metres la ) sebab nak kembang bagai or else end up like me jalan melayu terakhir simply cz my kain is sempit not enough meters haha. Upah jahit costed me only RM 85 only believe it or not. ( Told you cz it's not a couture couture ) hhahaaha for the songket, cant recap the price .Next, mini pelamin.It was complicated. Cz my taste is different with what the local bridal house could provide and some do but the price is , no I dont wanna pay for that much. So I told my father, instead of I pay them then they ll give me something that I dont like but I have to pay mahal for it, can u help me to do it? Definitely he said yes cz he loves doing this kind of thing like decorating, mengukir ukir, stuffs. We go white cz we believe it will turns out nice in the picture so he made the wooden white frame ukir sendiri potong sendiri everything. Initial plan was to make it brown but last minute, we changed. Th hydrangeas and large orchids I bought them in Cowboy ( just in front of my house I call it Ikea BP) haha. Those brown and ceramic vases, my dad's.  White curtains and white carpets we rent them ( will give the instagram later ) . Chair, it has been here for so long already but my friends asked ' ni kerusi mana' haha we just painted it gold and changed the cushion cover. Satisfied and jimat cost!Dulang hantaran.Me and his mom kept discussing and updating about this cz we want them to look perfect in everything la, designs, colors, the trays, the items on the trays and so on. It was 5 berbalas 7 ( or 7 berbalas 5?) im not sure sorry and we bought them together mostly were ofcourse from JPO cz it's the nearest and most convenience for me  haha it's really easy to get them from there okay sebab you can get handbags, women and men's shoes, shirt, perfumes,makeup set, and bla2 under one roof ! Dont end up finding sirih and Alquran there just because I said u can get most of them there pulak! But if you have more time and passports, go shop in Singapore once they have sales. My uncle told me ( only after I bought them all sigh ). Other option if u want to get cheaper than JPO kan, I suggest to order it direct from Europe and USA through this ig ->  @berndmar    and   @usa_loveshoppe .They are Malaysians personal shopppers.  I used to buy things from them la tapi as it takes weeks to be delivered so for this hantaran matter, I didnt. For baju , we bought siap2 nikah's busana so easy la sekali jalan je one time beli,The girls and boys.Chose the baby purple color, everything ( except for tudung and necklace ) is from Jakel.My family. I didnt give them specific colors but I told them to wear Pastels and my parents were in Baby Blue.Food.Catering. And most of the desserts , kuih muih everything were from my mom's friends,free. Till we all pun macam confuse ni siapa bagi ni siapa bagi there were plenty haha Alhamdulillah . Cheesetart on my hantaran with ship's detailing was from my aunt, Narida Nalina gundut cheesetart !Doorgift The Reko is from Ikea we bought 150 pcs for it. Then the what's that eak crysta glass jar tah apabenda tu from one of the suppliers in Ayer Itam , glass bottle from ( sorry i xtau nama kedai haha ) and kacang sponsored by my uncle, Cikmi and Popcorns for kids sponsored by my aunt Cikma.Makeup I first wanted to go matte makeup but suggested by a MUA also, I should not go for matte. Matte  for daily okayla, it's an engagement so should try highlighting here and there so I told these to my MUA for the majlis . I was worried, worried if I ended up looking like pondan matila nakk cz sometimes , some MUA will make you look like bapuk for real for real then Jannah ( my MUA ) did glittering. I first said no no no glittering  xsuka but when it done, wow.. not bad hehe I love it it enhance my look actually. here's the contact list - Ilimiah Catering - 012 7267395 (  taman maju )- Photographer      - 017 74477379 ( Faisoul Awan Pixel ) He's a friend of mine ada dua lagi members                                  Apish and Aiem. Photos are superb! and he s really good dalam memeriahkan                                        suasana haha and, easy to cooperate with, fast service!- Makeup              - instagram : Hennabycahayajannah , my 2nd time after LXC photoshoot.- Dulang hantaran lelaki - instagram : Putrajayakl_exclusivehantaran- Dulang hantaran I                  - instagram : rentherwedding ( pickup at Skudai JB )  & Sewa curtains  and carpets and etc- two extra dulang                     - instagram : faixalcreations_deco_n_artz  ( BBU JB )- some others                           - instagram : somethingborrowedbynawal- Kuih talam                             - Amaleena ( BP ) 017 7995419 ni memang sedap! everyone said it,n                                                        murah okay tempat lain harga dah above RM 30Brownies                                 - instagram : nurfatinmohdzaidi 010 7066097 meriah gila brownies dia                                                      very rich and tak lokek okay like, homagad full of taste!overall kanI think the paling high cost one is, our barang hantaran demmit lol others were okay okayla , and makeup and photographer , sure u can makeup urself can use ur own dslr but i didnt want to pening2 kepala, and wanted a perfect result, so I took the professionals one la. for me I dont mind if there comes any negative perceptions or issues   thrown to me like apa2 la haha I am just here, enjoying and keep being positive for me nothing's wrong thankyou to both families majlis went well . I am born to be very detail type of em bitch haha and k whatever hahaha it's okay .. Smile :) em these are all that I can think about now I might miss somewhere somewhat if you wanna know just text me ( like tyara she asked me who's cream puff was it ) haha okay till then.. I gotta pack my bag for the Nepal trip this Sunday, and my pending lipstick's work matter ( nangis ) , and ba2 okaybyeeeeeeee see ya !
xoxo,
yana.
x
xLet's start with ,Busana. I did not want a dress, tho my family all kept saying ' u know nowadays people get this kind of baju for engagement' and I said, yea that is why. because there has been plenty people wearing those kind of baju like dress labuh some flowers timbul2 or beadings something like that, that is why I wanted to wear something uncommon so I chose a simple and soft color songket bought in Jakel, and my mom decided to make it kebarung labuh and it turns out so damn nice ! This design, is inspired by Kak Abil ( nabila huda ) on her wedding day, also by Arma Couture. Sewn by, no couture couture haha it's by a nyonya I think her name is YahLee? ( aunt's regular taylor) . For veil, I told my mom siang2 lagi I dont want the modern veil labuci2 one. I want it like the alas meja kind of lace. ( orang dulu2 kan pakai alas meja putih bunga2 jarang2 tuu tuu ) so they gave me the reaction of..huh????? haha I told them, no worry! it will turn out nice cz i saw those 90's women they wore this kind of lace for their veil on top of their sanggul.kan! First I was worried la cz I wear tudung so wonder if the veil and tudung suit well, then I guess yea I made the right choice,kot haha. For this , it needs more than 5 metres . Disaster for me to walk as the skirt inside was a very small opening ( u need 5 1/2 or 6 metres la ) sebab nak kembang bagai or else end up like me jalan melayu terakhir simply cz my kain is sempit not enough meters haha. Upah jahit costed me only RM 85 only believe it or not. ( Told you cz it's not a couture couture ) hhahaaha for the songket, cant recap the price .Next, mini pelamin.It was complicated. Cz my taste is different with what the local bridal house could provide and some do but the price is , no I dont wanna pay for that much. So I told my father, instead of I pay them then they ll give me something that I dont like but I have to pay mahal for it, can u help me to do it? Definitely he said yes cz he loves doing this kind of thing like decorating, mengukir ukir, stuffs. We go white cz we believe it will turns out nice in the picture so he made the wooden white frame ukir sendiri potong sendiri everything. Initial plan was to make it brown but last minute, we changed. Th hydrangeas and large orchids I bought them in Cowboy ( just in front of my house I call it Ikea BP) haha. Those brown and ceramic vases, my dad's.  White curtains and white carpets we rent them ( will give the instagram later ) . Chair, it has been here for so long already but my friends asked ' ni kerusi mana' haha we just painted it gold and changed the cushion cover. Satisfied and jimat cost!Dulang hantaran.Me and his mom kept discussing and updating about this cz we want them to look perfect in everything la, designs, colors, the trays, the items on the trays and so on. It was 5 berbalas 7 ( or 7 berbalas 5?) im not sure sorry and we bought them together mostly were ofcourse from JPO cz it's the nearest and most convenience for me  haha it's really easy to get them from there okay sebab you can get handbags, women and men's shoes, shirt, perfumes,makeup set, and bla2 under one roof ! Dont end up finding sirih and Alquran there just because I said u can get most of them there pulak! But if you have more time and passports, go shop in Singapore once they have sales. My uncle told me ( only after I bought them all sigh ). Other option if u want to get cheaper than JPO kan, I suggest to order it direct from Europe and USA through this ig ->  @berndmar    and   @usa_loveshoppe .They are Malaysians personal shopppers.  I used to buy things from them la tapi as it takes weeks to be delivered so for this hantaran matter, I didnt. For baju , we bought siap2 nikah's busana so easy la sekali jalan je one time beli,The girls and boys.Chose the baby purple color, everything ( except for tudung and necklace ) is from Jakel.My family. I didnt give them specific colors but I told them to wear Pastels and my parents were in Baby Blue.Food.Catering. And most of the desserts , kuih muih everything were from my mom's friends,free. Till we all pun macam confuse ni siapa bagi ni siapa bagi there were plenty haha Alhamdulillah . Cheesetart on my hantaran with ship's detailing was from my aunt, Narida Nalina gundut cheesetart !Doorgift The Reko is from Ikea we bought 150 pcs for it. Then the what's that eak crysta glass jar tah apabenda tu from one of the suppliers in Ayer Itam , glass bottle from ( sorry i xtau nama kedai haha ) and kacang sponsored by my uncle, Cikmi and Popcorns for kids sponsored by my aunt Cikma.Makeup I first wanted to go matte makeup but suggested by a MUA also, I should not go for matte. Matte  for daily okayla, it's an engagement so should try highlighting here and there so I told these to my MUA for the majlis . I was worried, worried if I ended up looking like pondan matila nakk cz sometimes , some MUA will make you look like bapuk for real for real then Jannah ( my MUA ) did glittering. I first said no no no glittering  xsuka but when it done, wow.. not bad hehe I love it it enhance my look actually. here's the contact list - Ilimiah Catering - 012 7267395 (  taman maju )- Photographer      - 017 74477379 ( Faisoul Awan Pixel ) He's a friend of mine ada dua lagi members                                  Apish and Aiem. Photos are superb! and he s really good dalam memeriahkan                                        suasana haha and, easy to cooperate with, fast service!- Makeup              - instagram : Hennabycahayajannah , my 2nd time after LXC photoshoot.- Dulang hantaran lelaki - instagram : Putrajayakl_exclusivehantaran- Dulang hantaran I                  - instagram : rentherwedding ( pickup at Skudai JB )  & Sewa curtains  and carpets and etc- two extra dulang                     - instagram : faixalcreations_deco_n_artz  ( BBU JB )- some others                           - instagram : somethingborrowedbynawal- Kuih talam                             - Amaleena ( BP ) 017 7995419 ni memang sedap! everyone said it,n                                                        murah okay tempat lain harga dah above RM 30Brownies                                 - instagram : nurfatinmohdzaidi 010 7066097 meriah gila brownies dia                                                      very rich and tak lokek okay like, homagad full of taste!overall kanI think the paling high cost one is, our barang hantaran demmit lol others were okay okayla , and makeup and photographer , sure u can makeup urself can use ur own dslr but i didnt want to pening2 kepala, and wanted a perfect result, so I took the professionals one la. for me I dont mind if there comes any negative perceptions or issues   thrown to me like apa2 la haha I am just here, enjoying and keep being positive for me nothing's wrong thankyou to both families majlis went well . I am born to be very detail type of em bitch haha and k whatever hahaha it's okay .. Smile :) em these are all that I can think about now I might miss somewhere somewhat if you wanna know just text me ( like tyara she asked me who's cream puff was it ) haha okay till then.. I gotta pack my bag for the Nepal trip this Sunday, and my pending lipstick's work matter ( nangis ) , and ba2 okaybyeeeeeeee see ya !xoxo,yana.xxx

Assalammualaikum good day everyone !

My own cosmetic brand?

Okay so er how to start this ahahaha so yea dia macam ni..err  haha. You know I work as a seaman who live rottenly at sea, haha kidding  I mean be months at sea kan we all tend to think a lot of things once we finish the duty and go back to own cabin. It's the only time we could be alone so among a lot of things that I thought of, business is one of it.

Girls, girls, girls no matter la what is her career with whom they get married or whatsoever MOST OF US CANT RESIST SOMETHING PRETTY and makeup is one of it ! I know that some girls HATE makeup but maybe someone should try to put some light lipstick mascara and blusher on her awh I swear even if they say ' I dont like it ' .. deep inside they 'll say ' Eh cantik jugak aku sebenonya' haaa hahaha. And makeup and skills, em yea I think we should be having a little,  skill but lipstick, lip matte? Awhhh girls just put it on and you're good to go. Eyeshadow, blusher, contouring yes that even myself have to struggle haha.

I dont spend that much for makeup as I am not an expert pun but who can deny that feeling when we go to makeup stores .. You know that feeling alaa that feeling yang haishh only kita kita la understand haha. Cheap or expensive that depends on masing2 I myself own some expensive makeup ( for me okayla but Aghis said it's expensive k fine ) and also some I get from the drug stores , xda hal la as long as it is fine on my sensitive skin ni. And as long as it is SAFE!

But few lip matte, seghatus lebih cenonet like that hemm for me macam err err err. So one day I was as usual browsing the makeup on websites and went to Sleek Makeup to get few lip mattes then I thought why dont I purchase in a bulk and I resell here in Malaysia then I searched on how much these people sell here and I was suprised that some of them resell it with a mak datok mahalnyaaa haha so I ordered la from UK , I spent a thousand plus for that whole box seriously and my mom was ' apehalll' ' jual balik lah buu' ' owh ok' haha.

Bla3 when I was on board the ship I did a lot research because whenever I saw the lip matte I kept telling myself eii I want to have my own brand too please so I said I want to try to find those from the well known makeup manufacturing like UK,Korea and US and I found ! Another side of myself I was not confident at all for me it was , kinda impossible and it must be difficult if it is imported and all but my concern for the lip matte is I am afraid if I get those cheap one habisla bibir orang nantiii nooo so Alhamdulillah provided with the phone connection yang dapat once a week tu, nothing is impossible kena pandai cari and be ready to get rejected and disappointed jela. I looked at my bank account and was again in doubt should I spend this much for this? Risky gila kot.. Kereta ke lipstick kereta ke lipstick haha and tadaaaaa Lipstickkkk!!! Hehe.

Then I think. I need a co- founder! Someone has to be there on land haha to subtitute me while Im onboard at sea. Someone whom I trust a lot and whom can work exactly or almost exact to how I work , someone whom as fussy as I am haha and someone whom has almost the same mind pattern with mine.
So , guess who's my co- founder?  

2 months ago I texted her/him and proposed if she/he wants to be part of this and she/he said yes and Alhamdulillah till today, I bet I have chosen the perfect person :)

ABOUT US

• We will come out with FIVE SHADES from the nude , natural , sweet , even to the metallic ! So bolehler tuko tuko kan kalau nak pergi paso pakai color macam ni kalau nak pergi date kena la sweet2 sikit kalau nak glam needs a bold color ha nak jumpa bakal mak mertua, tuko ler balik to light color kan haaa.

•  Imagine, we are in line with the quality of those famous lipstick brands but we ll come with a very very affordable price for all !

•  We are working on the website so it will be easier for everyone to purchase. Just visit the website, scroll, cuci mata, pick and pay through our website too and we 'll send to your door! 

• Ingredients wise , this is my second question thrown to the manufacturer. They are safe I ensure you that and no worry they are vegan free!! ( maksudnya tiada bahan2 dari haiwan ) .

AND MANY MORE TO DISCOVER ! Just a few weeks to go and we will announce the launching. Wish me luck guys ! :D 

xoxo,
Yana .

Assalammualaikum good day everyone :)
Has been long time since I last visit this blog. 7eleven today it s my 23rd birthday and I was unsure if I want to post this but then yea let's just do it.

I am working on an oil tanker ship, at the age of 23 years old today If you ask me, I would never thought that I ll be able to be a third officer because the word of ' give up , I cant bear anymore' came thousand times for the past three years since I joined ALAM.

At the age of 23, it s about gaining and losing game. I lost one of my bestfriends, I lose trust to some people that I closed with and I lose ..time.
You wont usually hear this from me but here I gonna say this straight. Today, I have money. But I dont have a good time. Those days me and my friends had not much money but on this day, we were in some places celebrating my birthday arranged by them. Each years I start losing those. Birthday is just a birthday : ) To some people it has always been that way but for me birthday was always a special day , a day that nothing could goes wrong . But since I was 19,zzz I dont even want to talk further also what happened on 7 eleven for each years oh Except for last year my ship crews got me a cake but still it wasnt the same cz it wasnt a home.

But Im glad that tho some people has walked away and leave the stains , and some pulak went away and return , there are still few who stay. This time is no longer be nice to everyone ea, it's whoever wanna leave, please do before you leave your shits on me. Those days yes, as much as I could I ll try my best to keep , to let them stay oh no more no more.

Progress? Yea still working like emm like.. like .. something2.. waiting for another 5months to go home. And recently I am working hard on the business that will be launched next year once Im home InshaaAllah ,so far it goes well but need to collect more money to make it better hehe.  Luckily my ship this time route Asia je so we quite oftenly got the internet so yea okyla I can work from here easily.

And! really, duit tu..  I planned to use the money for the downpayment of my dream car, Audi. But instead of that, I canceled the plan and use the money to start up this business haha. And and and, I have stopped buying and scrolling for handbags , so that I can use up the money for business matters. I even cut some budgets that suppose to be used for my engagement for.. business again hahahahahha #revealedisit ! ahh better use the money to get more money first. Bergaya later. hmmm kempunan  but it's okay la kan , sometimes you have to lose something to get something ( but usually Im the type whom dont wanna lose ,try to get both ) haha

Honestly, it wont be a good sleep if I start to think on my future. From other people's point of view there s nothing to worry for me. But here.
As a seawoman, NOW I  am kinda conmfortable with the rank, salary, and all but till when ? What should I do once Im married. What job and how much may I earn . Can I still buy handbags , cz husband wont get for me one. So if I want what I want I got to get myself a job which, haha what job. But if I work, eg 8-5 job how if my husband is on leave for two months and he ll be staying at home alone. Then what does it mean by having a family? And kids wont be able to see their dad for months and mom will be around only at night and Sunday. Like that ?? THEN THE END OF THESE KECELARUAN USUALLY ENDED UP LIKE THIS ' HMMMM BUT I NEED MY OWN MONEY ALSOOO' HAHAHA. seeeee? Now you know why am I coming back with business. Honestly, I have plans but you know one time you say you want to stay till you become a Captain, one time you say you just want to sit at home baking and eat and serve kids. 

Plenty times, I admit it's the ego. Thoughts of ' I ve gone tru sooo much pain to get to this so will I just stop here as a third officer , you dont wanna be a captain yana? that 60k per month  ? that 4 stripes on the shoulder?'  Then few minutes later I ll start thinking, its ok la I let my husband to become one, I ll sacrifice. Then few minutes later again I ll start thinking, ehhhh mana bolehhh we both sama2 belajar both deserve that salary both bla3 hahah I dont know. I really dont know. Till the time comes, I... I dont know haha. Who is Yana in the next 10 years. But honestly, I m looking for real happiness. If one day it is meant that I have to sacrifice my this and that for the betterness, I ll do. But one thing I always bear in mind ha. Dont get too over confident on your partner haha today he might love you tomorrow you wont know if they say they dont know you and leave you undressed unhomed hahaha. #kidding #noimnotkidding in the end like they always said to me ' kau perempuan, ke dapo jugak akhirnya' .er ke dapo akhirnya tu mungkin la ye la kan haha but my point is , as a woman you ll one day become a wife and a mother, and whoever you are, what rank you have or what ship are u working with, I believe once u get married, husband is your captain.

What else? Oh I have one dream that I always look up to but untill today , I found it so hard to get into there. It requires me to make a massive transform to myself which, I barely can do. so yea I know HE listens to me and will open up the chance for me but just that, I wont know if I have the time. Hopefully the time will come soon.

Another thing, people questioned me when did my money goes when I told them I still dont have a car, a house, okayla atleast a basic thing that most of the teenager dah ada, kereta lah kan. Xda, memang I xda haha Im still young mannnn so my money is for my family ,bla3 baru u patut sebok pasal diri you and lepastu ngenyoh nak kawen ahahahha. Ni pun,still I havent done much for them. Told ya, more money less time. #butanyway #ihaventgotmydrivinglicensed #yejanjibalikniambik

Thankyou for all of the wishes.. Wishing the same for all of you too :)

OKAY IT S KINDA LATE ALREADY SHOULD GET MYSELF TO SLEEP. Conclusion on my 23rd birthday, goodluck Yana in planning your future hahaha be happy be grateful.
xoxo,Yana.

Recently, I realize this. 

When I look at my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, wow there's quite a big number of friends. Then I look at my Whatsapp chats, eh only few. It's less than 10 personal conversation , the rest are Whatsapp group and businesses. Compare to few years back when I had a lot of frnds to chat with!

Then to make it more obvious, was when I make a list of whom to invite on this one event of mine. It's a longgg longg longg way to go but I am a type that make a preparation almost a half year for every occasion cz for me I dont count days as ' months ' .I count as ' satu kapal' period .Ha okay back to when I made a list of the invitation , surprisingly I could only list very few, very..few! It suppose to be prioritized for my close friends as anyway this aint a wedding pon kan but the 'close friends' hmmm . I even cut some whom I already listed. Some of the reasons.

- Er, this fella. Used to be closed but not anymore cz he/she is actually a badass. 
- Er, this fella. Bila tak da girlfriend, cari kita bila ada girlfriend terus tak kenal kita.
- Er, this fella. When did the last time he Hi me. Owh three years ago.
- Er, this fella. Time dia nak business je dia cari.
- Er, this fella. Makin hari makin sial je perangai.

and etc.

At first when I told Aghis that I feel like I have very less friends now and I aint sure if it is a good thing or ? Then he said this. 

' I have made you into a better girl. '

And haha I dont know how to take that statement but I think , okayla maybe having an over protective boyfriend is one of the reason why ( sorry bro ) but I figured out that the main reason is, I DONT TAKE BULLSHITS ANYMORE. 

I used to be someone who cares too much on my relationship with other people. Too much concern on 'jaga hati' things like that. I have enough of those. I wont try hard anymore, it's the time to let go whichever / whomever that wants to walk away. I wont hold back , I wont be sad cz everyone now is grown up with their own lives so let them be. Kalau hang nak bla, hang bla. And wow! I feel much happier by doing that. 

Because you see ea.. What is the point of being someone who cares too much while others never even want to bother and appreciate? Bodohla kan? So Im waking up myself haha ! Less important matters, dont even get stressed about it. Last time I cried for days pasal get disappointed on this one manusia but , oh shit man why should I be sad about it. In fact, I should be grateful lah as one of the electron has leave! 

Family  lain, family is the responsibility.

The older I get, the more person that I found assholes. Some even , I called them friends. Today, I dont really ambik port lah. 

Yes. People will say things. Like, owh now that you have a career, bajet that you are having a good life konon that 's why you can say you dont care anymore.. Now can say lah ! But people do not know what makes us change. Takyah pening2 la, they dont even want to know the real things. They just love to assume. ASS U ME.

 It bothers me sometimes to think that ea what has happened to me now ea why am I hati kering sangat (  heartless ). This isnt Yana actually but to live, I have to be like this. And being someone who works onboard the ships, slowly without I realize it changes me and honestly, I dont like it tho. 

I think Aghis knows me well as he always scold me for being ' ala, nanti orang cakap apa' ( later what people will say ) ... Till that one point I said this. ' mampus la wea dorang nak cakap apa' .

However, I believe that we should be having a large number of  'kenalan'. For that I have to admit, I have quite a lot in all places even out of the country .Tapi nak kata dorang tu kawan, errr bukan kawan la they are just ' we know each other '.Networking in other hand, is ' bapak ah penting gila ' in living at today's society. Not all of the ' kenalan' are friends, so by separating the list of kenalan and kawan also , gives me a less headache life because you may differentiate like, okay this is to keep for? for business for example. And for this one pulak is to keep for ? shoulder to cry, for a friendship for example. Family is not in the list lah, family is what we should be keeping at all time no matter what kan. 
Without networking, it's quite a hardly living jugak lah kot. So, let's be wise. I dont choose whom should I friend with but I am particular on whom should I be close with.  Friends come and go, that's it. Yesterday they said they care, tomorrow ? 

Hi! Salam to all :D