Faith is a thing that u accept or forced to ?

Back to Alam after one week of leave . But still today after a week, we still got 3 days leave for Maulud nabi


Being busy with the speeches that I need to prepare and present for Toastmaster club, then now joining the debate society, thenn somemore with LAs yang berlambak, I like : D

Life is just so-so. I dont know but when I come back ALAM, I can live better I mean in term of not too much hurt to think or to feel of other disturbing matters. I guess it happens because bila jauh, I dont expect more to come kan. 

Study? I am trying to build up ,slowly  because damnly sure I tell myself that I actually can do much better. If I could survive on so-so results of sem 1 with not more than 10 hours on study for a subject, I'm sure this sem if I start earlier from now, I deserve a better one. But do trust me the subjects .. hahh

Let me share with you my thoughts now upon this. Do you believe in faith? Yes you do but do u able to accept it? Sometimes yes sometimes not. 

Takdir. Orang selalu cakap , kita rancang Allah tentukan. Tapi kadang2, we didn't even planned it though. Then when it comes, we believe that there must be a good reason beyond them . There must be a good sign for the future but how far can you see the goods ? You always ask yourself and wondering of it,but thing that always happen is, kita sendiri tak tau jawapannya. 

Salahkan takdir, when we cannot accept things happened. It happens to me too but I'm not sure if I blame the faith. But I think not, I don't blame but I just cannot really accept . Sometimes I realize that they come by my own mistake and that's why ! Aku tidak dapat menerima kenyataan yang aku pernah melakukan kesalahan yang akhir sekali, ruin all that I afraid the most to be happened before. 

Second of my experience, being here in ALAM. I never wanted to , I mean I never planned to be here. I just went with the flow. Passed the interview got the sponsor and yeah I'm here. Because I belive that this is my faith. Allah s.w.t memudahkan segala perjalanan masuk ke ALAM when it was actually, I did nothing much ! Tapi tula la, dah takdir. Over 5000 that applied, I was one among 200+ chosen. For those that really badly wanna join here, did so much efforts tapi tak dapat , pun tu dikatakan takdir.

Mnyalahkan takdir? 
Kadang2 menyesal masuk sini. Bukan menyesal apa2 cuma u know like sometimes when I disscuss with my mates here especially the guys, we talk much about the condition being here. I don't chase after the money we will earn but that is what goin to happen when you need to sacrifice this and that later. I dont want to survive having a life that way but yea I'm here! Allah showed me and this must be the best for me and the family. I never blame Allah but I always force myself. redha Yana redha. There must be the golds waiting in the end of the road. It's all up to me if I want to keep patient and sincere to walk on ,--walk straight, or --alter the way to somewhere and delay the time or --I stop in the middle to just pick up the pieces and end there. And that ...u will see soon or later. 
ALLAH permudahkan urusan ku dan sekalian hambanya : )