Salam Ramadhan to all :) 

All bless to Him, I got the chance to be here at home with the families for Ramadhan this year. This time, I see the pattern of how my family do the ifthar. Compare to the previous years, bazaar is no longer the 1st choice, it's more to the cook-your-own-dish and the most obvious, when I see the dining table, usually it's only the main dish of the day , 3 or 4 kuih , drinks and that s all. I am amazed hahaha. And for sahur, sorry  I have to be honest, I usually sleep at 4 to 5 am sometimes I drag to sahur time but most of the time I take Nestum, my all time favorite at 3 or 4 something like that and no more wake up for sahur then.

This year I try out to do some small business and it goes well so far. Hard work paid off.

 Raya preparation, ehem.

Ive bought some baju raya, some are ready to wear from the boutique or bazaar or recycle, anywhere la and some will be made by my mom, as usual she s my all time personal tailor. Those are bought much earlier before the fasting month! Some even haha okay what happened few days ago, I was cleaning my closet and I saw 5 to 6 shopping bags, in a bag! When I looked into it omg I found some clothes and shawls that I forgotten already they exist and that I had bought them ! haha see what happen when you simply buy things and when you're home, you put them somewhere2 and found them no since then! So I was like, owh okay I have some raya clothes already. Usually each year each of us in the family will get ourselves shoes and handbags for raya but Im planning to not getting any since I still have them good to wear. But you know, planning is just a planning lol.

Anyway, too bad that it's almost the end of holy month but the intention to finish 30juzuk of AlQuran in a month of this seems unachievable. Haiyer.....I told my father that this month is going so fast and he said, maybe I take less chance to do more ibadah. hmm.

So I wish everyone to have a good Ramadhan, a joyous health and the upcoming Eidulfitri :) Raya jemput lah datang ke rumah ya.

Well dear mohotezlilyana, I am sorry I know you might pissed off with me cz I ll be only sign into you when I m in trouble haha. So okay, I have zero photos in instagram as u guys are aware and what else to siasat from me? haaa ' wea what happened doe??' haha kann I know right.

Here the stories. I know some ( or worst, most) of you have been wondering to yourselves or may also be the bedtime story with your roomates (hmm )  on what has happened. Since I am aware that when things are in social networks, they ll spread really fast especially when people screenshot them and send it to the whatsapp group haha so okay my answer is, it happened.



I hope people dont judge  secara melulu cz I believe there s not even one person that knows what exactly happening better than us and not to be the ones yg tukang tambah garam ajinomoto blackpepper and all . Im writing this not to clarify who is right and who is not , cz well I might do so actually if I write this last two days when I was crying on the bed then Id get really emotional and not rational and start to tell everyyyything here haha but that is why la I write this tonight, when I am emm I think, able to think better InShaaAllah then this post will be full of positive vibes, I hope.

I knowwww everyone tengah jadi hakim mahkamah majistret now discussing with each others on this matter ( I become very sure on that cz I got that 'look' from some people when I walk to the class , kau pehal) .

No I dont have to tell people how I respond to this how I feel how I handle cz I learn from my mistake. This isnt a first time so If I can made it few years ago why not today.

Life is a circle. Hashtag Deep , I hope I can still get back what I used to dream but if I ll get hurt again if it will end up with ' dream onnnnnn ( emoticon the girl in pink buat tangan patah ) ' then ..then.. then it be. But surely along the way, I still have the career to deal with -,- family, girlfriends start to get married by numbers -,- and later to deal with their kids ( ohmygad ) Ive been thinking too far.

Knowing myself who is always not having enough strength lol , I need nothing but to grab some from my friends. :) These people who force me to get up from bed and get my meals, who came all the way from somewhere to see me to make me feel better, who gave me essays in whatsapp haha, who tarik me to the washroom and force me to wash the face ahahahahaha these people are too mainstream yet lovely isnt it.

If you expect me to give you a free ticket to watch the whole drama including the scene behind it including the bloomers , sorry sorry sorry tak dapek lah cz in this matter my brain doesnt connect to my heart . I still respect, still hatelove, still can think wise . I speak out the real stories to those who only deserve to :)